I believe in God. Nobody made me believe; I don’t think you can or should try to force someone to believe something. And even though my parents taught me stuff about God and read Bible stories to me from as early as I can remember … it was my choice to become a believer in Him. But before I genuinely commited my life to Jesus, I lived in the darkness and sought after the things that made me happy for a little while. Temporary pleasure, that’s how I call it. I oftentimes sit at one corner and start building walls around me, alone and doomed with insecurities that I made up. I got carried away with my emotions and it totally changed my ways of living. The thought of conforming so that people will accept you, I tried that, too. I was this person who goes to church for the sake of just going, nothing more. A goody attitude kid inside the church but when outside utters profanity. I knew what I’ve become and I came to the point where I couldn’t recognize myself anymore. I lost hope in life and I forgot that there was a God that understands me. A God that will forever be with me when I call His name and when I need Him the most. I failed to remember that I have a Father that cares about me each and every second of my life – the only One whom I can call out to or run to when I’m down. It was in the latter part when I understood things about Him, when I fully gave my life to Him and offered myself as a living sacrifice. I realized one day, through worshipping, His goodness. There and then it convicted me. I felt His love, His unfailing and unconditional love. That feeling when you close your eyes while worshipping and there’s this breeze that surrounds you like you are being embraced by someone really tight. How amazing indeed. He opened my eyes to the things of the world that hindered me from growing as a genuine Christian. Those were the things that separated me from my Savior and I am forever thankful that God saved me by His grace even though how underserving I am. He saved me so I gave my life to Him and made Him the author of my life. If before the most imperative things in my life were my friends, my fame, my name, and other worldly and selfish acts, not it a completely different. Jesus surely took the center stage not just in my life but most importantly in my heart. The way I see it, putting our faith in God is something that each person has to come to on his or her own. It’s your own personal relationship with Him; a bond that’s as unique as a fingerprint.
